Friday, May 18, 2007

Hope are the shield; Memories become the sword

and he realized….
There were times summers really existed;
when he spent them playing cricket in the scorching sun.
He doesn't see summer anymore,
There's only video games and air conditioned 'fun.'

He remembers times called winters, when
he slept under a blanket within the chilled walls of the den,
Ain't nothing a winter,
when you ask mercy of an electric heater.

He remembers times that they called monsoons;
Them rain drops used to come and make him play,
Like a three year old child
splashing and screaming in the puddles of clay.
The streets came alive as water gushed down the hose,
Moms yelled, “Come back, or you’re sure to run your nose.”
Friends rolled along; no matter what age we belonged!

Then time rolled,
and the world turned,
and people changed…..

Them rain drops still shower, and the winds still blow,
He recalls memories of the distant lands and lets his eyes flow
He has no more puddles, just a neat and cozy room now,
No more old time friends as he looks out of the window.
A wet street outside, drenched in rain as he blinks;
No live motion at sight but a couple of cars, he thinks,
"Wow, now I don't even get monsoon here, it stinks!"

He remembers the friends he made;
Friends he made with the innocence of childhood,
Not with mature choices;
Mature choices always only made business partners.

He is thankful for getting this Promised Land,
But wishes he could get back to Her at the end.
What he had borrowed at the start out of Her is Hers.
There will be a lot that he will earn
from the little he had borrowed with his little hands.
He is sure mother will be proud when he returns,
with all heart and the elements that belong to her lands.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

As Temporary Times Unfold.....


So music really inspires me. This is something that I really can't explain. Five minutes ago I was thinking of writing something over here and I put it off as I really didn't want to do it. Right now I am listening to songs from Rang De Basanti and I can't stop writing. It's just something that puts me in a world that is mine. It is ridiculously relaxing. All I can feel right now is the enjoyment I get from the music. I am guessing that's why my people believe music is very close to God. I don't really know what I want to write right now. I am recalling a scene that happened a year from now. It was a normal day. We went to school and sat in one of the lecture halls to study as we didn't have any room in the library. Anand then comes up with this thought that after two years we will all be on our separate ways and we might not be able to see each other. I am smiling right now thinking of it. There was a time in India when I was with Dhvanil and Nisarg watching the movie. We were wondering whether it could really happen to us. This moment was exactly like the one that took place today. Less than a year after that, it was decided that I am going to USA. When Anand told me that sentence, I was completely indifferent. I didn't want that to happen, but I did not want to say anything about it either. I told him that I might not even be alive after two years.

Why does money have to be so important that you have to lose your best friends and life for it?These moments that I am going through with my friends right now will never be available to me again. How will I feel when I think about these times ten years from now? Anand asked me to promise me that I will keep in contact. "Keeping in contact" doesn't mean anything to me. Lol, I am still in contact with Gagan, Dhvanil and Nisarg, am I not? But its never the same. Its never going to be the same. Its all because of money. Money kills. At least I have my family that will be with me until the end.
Wow, listen to this....

......मेरी पतंग हो बेफिकर उड़ रही है माँ
डोर कोई लुटे नहीं, बीच से काटे ना.....

I think this man is trying to emotionally take over me or something. A.R. Rahman is the pinnacle of music. Really! Music can change my mood tremendously. Why can't I make music like this when I grow up? I can't see anything like that anywhere in my future. But I hope I will make music like this when I grow up. And once I do it, I hope it will impact someone like it has impacted me now. Not because I want money or fame or anything material out of it. But just because it's the best feeling. I want that person to experience what I am experiencing right now. You really have to be lucky to go through what I am going through right now and I thank God with all my heart for everything.

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

"Fight" has always been the answer


है लिए हथियार दुश्मन ताक में बैठा उधर,
और
हम तैयार हैं सीना लिए अपना इधर,
ख़ून से खेलेंगे होली ग़र वतन मुश्किल में हैं,
सरफरोशी कि तमन्ना अब हमारे दिल में है।





The Master Chief is not fearless. He fears a lot of things. But he has the ability to fight his fears and achieve his mission inspite of the fear in his mind. He is scared that he will have to spend his and his Spartans' lives for the mission. He is afraid that his mission might be left incomplete. He is afraid that he has never seen defeat and one of these days, defeat will show it's face and he does not know how horrible it will be. But execution of the mission overrules everything. He somehow manages to completely erase these fears off his mind and gets back on mission. He has never seen defeat and he will never allow defeat to show it's face.

Once you imagine a goal, you decide or get help deciding whether it is right or wrong. Once you have decided what is right for you, you fight to execute it, or die trying. It sounds simple and difficult at the same time. The fight is always a fight for determination. Determine yourself to not take your mind off your goal. You can achieve only if you can determine. Thus "Fight" for determination has always been the answer to my questions. But it is indeed a very hard fight to put up. This is a challenge we all face. Only those who execute determination emerge out of the crowd.

Monday, May 7, 2007

वंदे मातरम

तू ही जिन्दगी है,
तू ही मेरी मुहब्बत है,
तेरे ही पैरों में जन्नत है,
तू ही दिल, तू जान,
माँ,
माँ तुझे सलाम