As Temporary Times Unfold.....

So music really inspires me. This is something that I really can't explain. Five minutes ago I was thinking of writing something over here and I put it off as I really didn't want to do it. Right now I am listening to songs from Rang De Basanti and I can't stop writing. It's just something that puts me in a world that is mine. It is ridiculously relaxing. All I can feel right now is the enjoyment I get from the music. I am guessing that's why my people believe music is very close to God. I don't really know what I want to write right now. I am recalling a scene that happened a year from now. It was a normal day. We went to school and sat in one of the lecture halls to study as we didn't have any room in the library. Anand then comes up with this thought that after two years we will all be on our separate ways and we might not be able to see each other. I am smiling right now thinking of it. There was a time in India when I was with Dhvanil and Nisarg watching the movie. We were wondering whether it could really happen to us. This moment was exactly like the one that took place today. Less than a year after that, it was decided that I am going to USA. When Anand told me that sentence, I was completely indifferent. I didn't want that to happen, but I did not want to say anything about it either. I told him that I might not even be alive after two years.

Why does money have to be so important that you have to lose your best friends and life for it?These moments that I am going through with my friends right now will never be available to me again. How will I feel when I think about these times ten years from now? Anand asked me to promise me that I will keep in contact. "Keeping in contact" doesn't mean anything to me. Lol, I am still in contact with Gagan, Dhvanil and Nisarg, am I not? But its never the same. Its never going to be the same. Its all because of money. Money kills. At least I have my family that will be with me until the end.

Wow, listen to this....

......मेरी पतंग हो बेफिकर उड़ रही है माँ
डोर कोई लुटे नहीं, बीच से काटे ना.....

I think this man is trying to emotionally take over me or something. A.R. Rahman is the pinnacle of music. Really! Music can change my mood tremendously. Why can't I make music like this when I grow up? I can't see anything like that anywhere in my future. But I hope I will make music like this when I grow up. And once I do it, I hope it will impact someone like it has impacted me now. Not because I want money or fame or anything material out of it. But just because it's the best feeling. I want that person to experience what I am experiencing right now. You really have to be lucky to go through what I am going through right now and I thank God with all my heart for everything.